YWednesday, April 04, 2007
im dam pissed off todae again.
she actually diao-ed me toade. dam
i was talking to tempestt bout my chem marks.
i asked her marks as well. turn dack den i saw her eyes big big
ZAI DIAO WO.
hmm. tao yan lor she.
go eat shit and die larh.
i tried to be very active. talkative todae le. but still like no use like dat.
dam her. tao yan tao yan.
hmmm..
when we are not talking to her. she will chap in and ask.
wat wat? piang no one was talking to her.
hmmm. i forgot its which time. i actually scolded.
*f**k
den sherr and jingyi come tell me.
'tis is my first time hear marr like dat sae'
hahas. well i think maybe tis is the first time bah. not sure.
hmmm. im reali pissed off lor.
er xin.
den i think during recess dat time she got complain to wan qi.
i keep seeing her looking at our direaction.
like want diao me like dat. her eyes big arh.
so? i got my eyes too. hahas.
dam i reali hate her. kind of like talk back to her during SS.
dam pekcek lah.
hmm i dun want tok bout her liao.
todae got chinese compo writing competition.
wrote one the topic 'i love rainy days' hahas
nice topic.
wanna chose the other topic de.
'ke wang kuai le'
hahas.
but in the end i chosed 'i love rainy days'
hmmm. a topic where i wrote alot of rubbish inside.
hahas. i hab to rushed out my compo.
no time*.
siian. so considered not so well done.
well i did my best bah.
hahas.
i continued reading my book 'it's called a breakup because its broken'
den there tis page which saes dat.
there's 2 condition that afflict many refugees of recent breakups.
FIRST.
the revisionist romance disorder(RRD)
those who suffered frm RRD cannot control the need to rewrtie their r/s
to match the feelings they want to have about it.
when you rewrite the past and made yr romance seems so perfect.
SECOND.
the dumper's remorse.
dumper's remorse is different from revisionist romance disorder.
becos it's not about being delude about wat kind of guy he was all along.
but rather about second-guessing yourself.
with dumper's remorse, you have seen the reality, you know he's not the one for you, and you even been brave enough to do the deed but.
when faced whith yr first weekend alone, you start ssecond-guessing.
all yr insecurities about whether you'll ever find the right guy become a breeding ground for dumper's remorse and can lead you to make some very bad decisions. like taking him back and wasting even more time in a r/s that's going nowhere.
hmmm. after reading i dunno which one i falls into.
but i feel dat i fall in the 2nd condition. the dumper's remorse.
haiis. dunno wat to do. mind is in the mess now.
told sherr somethings.
she said i regreted. hmm. i think so.
i dunno how to get him out of my mind.
and the worst thing is dat. rmb previously. i send him a msg?
i didnt get a reply. so i dunno wat to do.
im prepared for the worst. the possibility is not high bah.
im like giving myself a false hope.
wat to do? wat to do?
'god. i need fate. make me believe in fate'
theEnd;DD
4/04/2007 06:04:00 PM