todae its sunday!
ytd i said smth right? i will do smth.
but den hor. i rmbed the dat wrongly. its surpose to be tml.
but its ok de lah. hmmm.
oh god. suddenly think of the unhappy side.
but actually.
i can live without him.
without his love.
i still hab my girl's love.
but its torturing larhs.
to forsake a 5mths + r/s
for my studies.
for my freedom.
or watever things else.
people sae i might did the wrong choice.
but i think its worth it bah.
to let him realise smth.
smth which i dont even noe.
but also to let me realise.
actually how much i reali love him.
but its too late now.
being on my own. its good bah.
he can concentrate on his studies and work.
wished him all the best.
and myself too.
but i still hab to go through this though period.
i need to wash him out of my mind.
possible?
i dunno.
loving him without his knowing is all i could do.
erms. i hab mastered the art of eating slowly!
hahas. i've been eating real slow nowadays.
cant eat much. cant eat fast.
once i feel dat im eating fast.
my stomach will like telling me dat. i want to vomit.
im kinda of weird.
dunno why im like tis these few days.
and i cant slp well.
always feel like not eating.
smth wrong wib me?
omg. todae got frighten awake.
all thanks to my dad. he came in my room and started shoutiing?
reali got frighten awake.
scary. my dad is scary.
thinking should i get my blogskin change
haben decide yet.
hmm.. struggling now.
tml start sch again.
my work still not done yet. maths and maths. dunno how to do lah.
probabilty.
i dunno how to do.
kinda of hard for me to understand wat she's trying to teach.
and always makeing me falling aslp.
cannot cannot like tis. will die sia. hmmm..
everyday been staying back late in sch. habng remidials.
kinda of cannot take it larhs. but must jiiayous.
i promised him dat i will jiiayou de.
i must keep to the promise.
hahas.
next week gonna go out again.
i gonna purchase a new waterbottle.
yeah.
i think im not getting dat particular design.
im taking the other design.
should be bah. if all take same design plus same colour.
i can bet dat you girls will mixed up yr waterbottles.
hahas.
i cant imagine wat will happen tml.
as usual the black face frm her?
or wat?
I WANT A HAPPY FACE
frm everyone. hahas.
theEnd;DD
3/31/2007 08:58:00 PM
hahas. ppl im back.
went to orchard todae wib tlt;sherr
habb funn.
didnt tok much todae lah.
in mrt or watever. but still hab fun.
we took neoprints todae. hahas.
its a very very new machine. which enables you to infar yr neos to yr hp.
cool right?
the very first machine in singapore.
hahas. one thing i dun like is we hab to stand dduring the whole photo taking process.
i dun like standing de.
hahas. got one photo very cute. tlt lah.
ermmmsss
wait!
i upload the photo let you see. hahas.
went to orchard todae wib tlt;sherr
habb funn.
didnt tok much todae lah.
in mrt or watever. but still hab fun.
we took neoprints todae. hahas.
its a very very new machine. which enables you to infar yr neos to yr hp.
cool right?
the very first machine in singapore.
hahas. one thing i dun like is we hab to stand dduring the whole photo taking process.
i dun like standing de.
hahas. got one photo very cute. tlt lah.
ermmmsss
wait!
i upload the photo let you see. hahas.
nice right? she was driving a car!
hahas. nice.
i was like dunno wat to pose so when it goes 3 . 2. 1
den i quicky quicky anyhow anyhow pose. hahas.
anyway vvery funny. we are tired. walking whole day.
yeah. rmbed one thing. we went library.
den i found tis particular book. called 'its called a breakup'
got to noe tis book by cleo.
while flipping through cleo i saw tis small little corner toking bout tis book.
so went to take a look at tis book. it interest me lah. wanna read it.
but one thing is dat. the book was like kind of sad. toking bout breakupps.
i scare i will do smth abnormal after reading the book.
maybe i will cry?
maybe i will realise smth impt bout r/s.
maybe i will let go of everything. continue on my life.
hahas.. maybe tis and dat hor?
hmm. besides this book. i borrowed another.
its toking bout r/s as while dunno how to descibe lah.
but looks nice.
tml its the 1st of april. it our sister de 6th month.
im going to do smth tml. hahas. shhh...
you are not suppose to noe. till tml hahas.
but its suppose to be happy. but actually. not so.
tml is the day i broke up wib him 1 week ago.
its 1 week le. kind of surprise. i actually can go through tis whole week.
without crying everyday. whithout always thinking bout him.
so acutally tells me dat. i can actually live without him.
correct?
who noes?
hahas.
todae is like. we go out the places. is like the places i went wib him.
thus. memories will all start flowing out.
ahhh.. i dun wanna think bout dat anymore. wat can i do? i cant stop myself.
LOLS.
many homework is still waiting for me seh. gonna do.
lock myself in the room.
dun worry. im not going to do anything else.
other den my homeworks. and reading my book.
hahahas.
GQ is in malaysia now.
not fair nv bring me go? hahahs.
=XX
theEnd;DD
3/31/2007 03:34:00 AM
haiis. todae itss tiring todae.
hmmm. smth i saw todae again. makes my blood boiled.
hmmm. it our turn for PCCG lessons. so went back to home room.
sitted at our desk. after both teacher finish toking. we were left to do our own things.
den. tok tok tok. jiu i wanna go toilet. but non of them wanna come wib me. so nvm lor.
in the end. bernice went wib me.
hmmm. come back. jiu saw yi at my sit. call me sit at her place. its ok wib me de lah.
but den. things started happening bah.
yi started whispering to sherr and tempestt.
den they like got smth dun wanna let me noe. dunno wats dat.
den got once. the all hide to a corner and talk. like so obvious they are hiding things frm us.
den left me and her there lor.
finally i could understand how xin feels when we are talking among ourselves nor.
dat type of neglected de feelings. its not good at all. den i realise how badly we hab treated her.
although i very much wanna noe wat you guys are toking. but im too lazy to ask le.
dunn wanna noe. dun want tell me den i dun ask lor. later i pekcek.
hmmm. denn when they hide in one corner. i was looking at her. den saw her diao-ing everyone. or isit juss yi? i dunno. one of them bah. den dunno when they walked away.
den to make her not so ''angry''
i started toking to her. lots and lots of things.
toking crap larhs.
toked quite for a long time. they still haben come back. den forget it lah. dun wanna tok to them le. even go tak uniform oso xin accompany me. they dunno go where. forget it nor.
i can feel dat xin reali very dulan liao lor. but xin oso makes us very dulan.
haiyo. pekcek. pekcek. dun wanna sae liao.
theEnd;DD
3/30/2007 02:27:00 AM
todae. sherr's mad. totally mad.
got bullied by tempestt;jingyi;junyang;tlt;sherr;bernice;widiah
after school. they not good lah.
at first is tempestt;jingyi;sherr bully first de. cos tlt;junyang
they dunno wats happening.
den dat sherr arh. she told junyang;tlt
den all gang up together come bully me. piang.
den saw widiah walking towards us. den i complain to her
they bully me. den again they told widiah wat happened den widiah went over to their side.
after dat saw benice coming wor. den i told bernice they bully me.
and den they refreshed her memory. den she went over to their side too..
piang. not fair lor. all bully me. stupid larh.
i got my rights to noe wat they planning for my birthday right?
not fair lah. i wanna noe.
but den soon i gave up. i stop asking them. they funny nor gib me the clues.
wanna noe?
-a place which got door
-a place which got tv
-a place which got sofa
-a place which got sound.
-its a place i wanna go there very much
hmmm. wat else forgot le.
hmmm. wat i guess is KTV.
i love singing ma. plus dat time i keep saying i wanna go. but no chance.
hmmm. nervous sia. they planning all the things.
den i dunno where they will bring me to.
dunn wat they will do to me. hahas.
im very pissed off wib her todae.
dam it. the way she diao jingyi.
i saw. i reali saw it.
ddurinng eng. i heard her banging her file on table banging her leg. all dat
so i followed lor. i wanna let her noe.
not onli she can vent her anger on us. me too. i can vent my anger too.
tis place does not belongs to you onli.
stop diao-ing jingyi lah.
i very pissed off sia. think yr eyes very nice?
mine nicer lor? hahahahas
pls lah. stop all yr stupid things.
anytime i might burst you noe? stop it lah.
i dun wish anything to happen to us hor.
hmmm. im hiding my sadness inside of me? i appeared happy? hardly daydream todae. hmmm. ytd i msged him ask 'will you wait for me to finish my o's den we get back together. will you?'
but i got nth back. so forgot it nor. i might forget him fast. or even very slowly? i dunno. i onli noe dat i need time.
im still the same old me. MARR''
theEnd;DD
3/29/2007 03:20:00 AM
school's comp simply suckss.. i wanna dl a file frm email. they blocked it. in the other lab. its ok de. dunno why tis lab cannot. i tried 5 comps. all 5 comp all cannot. dam. hmmm.
i broken up wib him. its my decision. i think i gave myself excuses bah. even GQ keep saying dat obviously im giving him excuses. but yet he choose to believe me. so let it be nor. i dun wish to explain anymore. those who wants to noe will noe. those who dun want to noe den sure they wont noe. my friends will noe. i break not becos dat i dun love him anymore. but i want to lessen the pain im habing now. can count as im selfish bah. i let him go. becos of myself. indeed i hurt him quite alot? or abit? i dont know. who noes? a guy who kept everything to himself. probably think no ones noe wat is he thinking right now. whether is he hurt by me? i dont know. guess im too selfish le bah.
i cried lots of time. tears kept flowing down by itself. i tried not to cried ytd while walking home wib sherr. but she tok tok tok. den i start crying le. she sae im crying guard (cos i send her home). heart pain of cos i will de. heart now is dam pain. but i noe after awhile. i will be alright. we wont be back like usual le. its the past. i hab put them behind. no matter wat. i must. tis period is the time where i cry alot. reali alot. ytd finally stop crying le. after awhile. tears will start rolling down again. finally my tears stop le. but den after a while tears will roll down again. think tis continue for 4 times. so in total ytd i cried 5 times. nowonder now my eye hurts. i reali tried now to come to sch wib red eyes. not to bring those. stupid thoughts wib me. those stupid feeling i hab now to sch. i dun wanna affect my friends mood. i reali dun want. the kind of eye contact sometimes the gave me. i can feel dat they haoxiang got alot of things wanna tell me. but they jus dun wanna sae out onli. esp darling. i can sense dat. really. but now i tends to daydream alot in school. i can be happy at this moment. but the next sec. i will back to my normal mood. i guess. im habing a mask in front of me. i appear happy infront of my girls. but i think actually im not. they joke, laugh, just to make me feel happy abit. i noe de. wat they does i noe one. ytd wat sherr did. i noe. i put them in my heart to mend up the hole in my heart. thanks girls. for tis few weeks i guess i will still be moody. im sorry. if got anything jus ask me lah. dun hide it in yr heart. you wont ask me. den i wont tell you. its a deal. get it? GQ told me one thing ytd. said wat me and marr officially break liao. why must he use officially tis word. tis thing puzzle me. why cant he use other words. his reply msg. to me. he's jus waiting for me to sae out the words. jus forget it nor. wat i could sae was tis. forget it nor. i hab made tis decision. even if i regret it will onli be my secret. and someone ask him. why dont he made me stay? he jus sae. he feel weird. so jus let me go nor. so again. i said forget it nor. tis ending kind of good for him bah he can always find another girl. some one much more better den me. no need to suffer any more i guess?
theEnd;DD
3/26/2007 07:06:00 PM
todae. i got bumped by dat fking bitch. dam it. she purposely de lor. dam her. i will rmb wat she did to me todae. i noe sherr todae like keep doing stupid stuffs. cos she wanna make me laugh dun wanna make me mood swing.
theres more for me to sae. no mood to sae now. sae other time bah.
theEnd;DD
3/26/2007 03:52:00 AM
你不知道:
把回忆重新翻一遍
终成为我们的交集点
有点甜，也有点远 一切的开始就像昨天
戒不掉好多画面
闭上眼，还看的见
我好想能陪在你的身边
我的想念何时你才会发现
你不知道我的难熬爱情在我们中知道
爱的暗号你没有收到我要怎么办才好
你不知道我想依靠只要能躲在你怀抱
我不知道，有天你能否只对我好
可不可以靠近一点
记住这张爱你的脸
闭上眼，等待永远
我好想 能陪在你的身边
我的想念 何时你才会发现
你不知道我的难熬爱情在我们中知道
爱的暗号你没有收到我要怎么办才好
你不知道我想依靠只要能躲在你怀抱
我不知道，有天你能否只对我好
你不知道我的难熬爱情在我们中知道
爱的暗号你没有收到我要怎么办才好
你不知道我想依靠只要能躲在你怀抱
我不知道，有天你能否只对我好
theEnd;DD
3/24/2007 07:00:00 PM
never do i dare to imagine wat will happen tomorrow.
i never noe wat happens tml. neither do i noe the future.
but i jus cant stop myself for thinking or even imagining things.
i dun wish dat he's bored den come find me to hab a tok. its tiring like tis.
i noe when he's busy he cant tok to me.
but i dun wish dat its onli when he's bored
den he will know dat im exist.
i felt negleted. reali negleted. the feelings waaas different.
im happy with my life. with or without him.
i dunno why. is there a difference when he appeared in my life.
dunno why.
everytime im alone i will feel like crying.
everytime when theres no one toking.
i will move quietly to my daydream.
LOLS.
i feel like crying everytime.
theEnd;DD
3/24/2007 12:17:00 AM
hahahas. im back back back frm guides camp. didnt managed to stay over night in sch wib them. but i took lots of pics. some is iin suhaila's camera. hmmm. im going to kope frm her blog.. hahas. im going to post them up later. later. got some videos as well. funny. we all went crazy. im not going to explain those pics larhs. im very tired now. need pia all my home work dam lah. hmm.. the camp. outdoor cooking was nice.(the food larh) hmmm. morning throat was dam pain. voice changed. maybe ytd the outdoor cooking. i breath too much smoke into my body so now my throat abit affected. here's the pics. abit messy hor. opps paiseh. i dunno how to upload videos. hahas. next time bah.
theEnd;DD
3/16/2007 01:52:00 AM
nth much to blog todae. for ytdd lei. onli conclusion : primeval is scary. oh god. pls kindly kill dat stupid crocodile. hahas. stop it. its killing too much ppl in africa. i pity for them. after the movie. walk around. feel dat smth bad i going to happen. the atmosphere was dam bad. i started to so so so moody. my mood sure change real fast. when walking into tampines mall. jus outside IP zone. me and darling was like walking behind. others are walking in front dam fast leaving us behind. so darling came toking me. den i started to tell her lots of things. while saying all those things my tears like wanna come out le. but den i ren cos i dun wanna affect darling's mood. so ren nor. but the thing is dat. the moment i stop saying. i saw darling's tears rolled down. dunno why as usual my tears flow down as well. cant help it. den we both cried. at first. no one noes we are crying. junyang noes. hes walking behind as well. den dunno who found dat we are actually crying. haiis. tlt funny de lor. keep passing tissue to me. hahas. but den i told darling watever i feel and my thoughts. trying to make her understand wat i feel bah. i can feel dat she understands it and gave me a hug. hahas. hope she will be alright.
im thinking. wat if things happen to me as well? will darling sae back those things to me as well? im afraid. i will cry more. thinking. after darling will it be someone else saying those words another time for me? oh god. i can sense that things are reali not going well for us bah. me, sherr and darling and every one else? haiyo. lets jiiayou bah.
theEnd;DD
3/13/2007 12:02:00 AM
i jus tot of this you noe. ytd i should hab told her ''where has the old yoou gone to? ddead? the old you was such a better persson. all cos of yr tis fren you sort of leave us for good and headed to her sside. and yet you hab change to such a person all cos of dat girl. the moments we spent together. you hab all forgetten!. dun ever forget. yr sister is going to be a teacher. you are onli bring disgrace to yr sister. dun forget. imagine yr sister is going to be a teacher. and yet her 2 younger sister are making trouble in sch. wat will your sister feel? spare a tot for others. you totally changed. the previous you i known. wont be so ''brave'' to actually look up dat person and actually start shouting and scoldng dat person. all cos of dat girl. you dun even like to mixed around wib those baddies. and now? all cos of dat girl you got them all as yr backup. you are onli hurting yrself in the end. i dun benefit anything quarrelling wib you. its you yrself. you hurt not me. but yrself. ''
i actually cried over sherr's blog again. think shes toking about me. not reali sure but got dat feeling. dunno y. hmmm. forget it bah. let things be like wat it should be. its fated. no matter how much you scolded its gonna be the same. no matter how much you tried to make him awake its still the same. you cant change him. he is who he is now. no one can change including me no matter wat. im now very confused should i let go or not? i reali hab difficulties making such decision. i think i might need help now. how am i going to face him during mon?
i feel like im a clown now. habing a mask infront of me. im tired. real tired. think im going to breakdown soon. now i can onli bury myself in the stack of homework. to make myself feel less hurt. could forget bout the pain permenantly. dats all i could do now.
theEnd;DD
3/10/2007 10:12:00 PM
im dam pissed off todae. hao hao de yi ge lunch gib her make till like tis. dam it. i actually quarrelled wib dat bitch todae. she started all these. want gib me trouble still call ppl come find me. dunno how to come yrself arh? call yr friend de stead come. want come come yrself. quarrelling isnt funny. yr friend and sis by the side is dam dam dam no manners. ppl quarrelling and they still can laugh. stupid lah. dat girl quarrel till dunno wat to sae le den her frend chap in. if word. jiu chee bye larh. keep repeating and repeating. dam her lah. no other words to sae arh? keep repeating and repeating. no matter how much we quarllel no need to use all the vulgur language rite? no manners ppl are like tis. quarrel till half i jus walk off. hack care them seh. nth to do. come gib me trouble. my mood totally changed. got dam angry. i was like shouting to sherr they all.. paiseh arh. my mood not good. aahhh.. made my mood more not good. she even sae wat. ni zhi bu zhi dao ni yi jing offended alot ppl? wat gonna do wib me? offended jiu offended lah. wats wrong? its matter between us why involved other ppl in? YOU TOTALLY SPOILT MY MOOD.
theEnd;DD
3/09/2007 03:08:00 AM
the colours of friendship~
Once upon a time the colors of the world started to quarrel.
All claimed that they were the best.
The most important. The most useful. The most beautiful.
The favorite.Green said:"Clearly I am the most important. I am the sign of life and of hope. I was chosen for grass, trees and leaves. Without me, all animals would die.
Look over the countryside and you will see that I am in the majority.
"Blue interrupted:"You only think about the earth, but consider the sky and the sea. It is the water that is the basis of life and drawn up by the clouds from the deep sea.
The sky gives space and peace and serenity. Without my peace, you would all be nothing.
"Yellow chuckled:"You are all so serious. I bring laughter, gaiety, and warmth into the world. The sun is yellow, the moon is yellow, the stars are yellow.
Every time you look at a sunflower, the whole world starts to smile.
Without me there would be no fun."Orange started next to blow her trumpet:"I am the color of health and strength.
I may be scarce, but I am precious for I serve the needs of human life.
I carry the most important vitamins.
Think of carrots, pumpkins, oranges, mangoes, and papayas.
I don't hang around all the time, but when I fill the sky at sunrise or sunset, my beauty is so striking that no one gives another thought to any of you.
"Red could stand it no longer he shouted out:"I am the ruler of all of you. I am blood - life's blood!
I am the color of danger and of bravery.
I am willing to fight for a cause.
I bring fire into the blood.
Without me, the earth would be as empty as the moon.
I am the color of passion and of love, the red rose, the poinsettia and the poppy.
"Purple rose up to his full height:He was very tall and spoke with great pomp: "I am the color of royalty and power.
Kings, chiefs, and bishops have always chosen me for I am the sign of authority and wisdom. People do not question me!
They listen and obey.
"Finally Indigo spoke, much more quietly than all the others, but with just as much determination: "Think of me. I am the color of silence. You hardly notice me, but without me you all become superficial.
I represent thought and reflection, twilight and deep water.
You need me for balance and contrast, for prayer and inner peace.
"And so the colors went on boasting, each convinced of his or her own superiority. Their quarreling became louder and louder.
Suddenly there was a startling flash of bright lightening, thunder rolled and boomed.
Rain started to pour down relentlessly.
The colors crouched down in fear, drawing close to one another for comfort.
In the midst of the clamor, rain began to speak:"You foolish colors, fighting amongst yourselves, each trying to dominate the rest.
Don't you know that you were each made for a special purpose, unique and different? Join hands with one another and come to me.
"Doing as they were told, the colors united and joinedhands.
The rain continued:"From now on, when it rains, each of you will stretch across the sky in a great bow of color as a reminder that you can all live in peace.
The Rainbow is a sign of hope for tomorrow." And so, whenever a good rain washes the world, and a Rainbow appears in the sky, to let us remember to appreciate one another.
theEnd;DD
3/08/2007 05:04:00 AM
Once upon a time the colors of the world started to quarrel.
All claimed that they were the best.
The most important. The most useful. The most beautiful.
The favorite.Green said:"Clearly I am the most important. I am the sign of life and of hope. I was chosen for grass, trees and leaves. Without me, all animals would die.
Look over the countryside and you will see that I am in the majority.
"Blue interrupted:"You only think about the earth, but consider the sky and the sea. It is the water that is the basis of life and drawn up by the clouds from the deep sea.
The sky gives space and peace and serenity. Without my peace, you would all be nothing.
"Yellow chuckled:"You are all so serious. I bring laughter, gaiety, and warmth into the world. The sun is yellow, the moon is yellow, the stars are yellow.
Every time you look at a sunflower, the whole world starts to smile.
Without me there would be no fun."Orange started next to blow her trumpet:"I am the color of health and strength.
I may be scarce, but I am precious for I serve the needs of human life.
I carry the most important vitamins.
Think of carrots, pumpkins, oranges, mangoes, and papayas.
I don't hang around all the time, but when I fill the sky at sunrise or sunset, my beauty is so striking that no one gives another thought to any of you.
"Red could stand it no longer he shouted out:"I am the ruler of all of you. I am blood - life's blood!
I am the color of danger and of bravery.
I am willing to fight for a cause.
I bring fire into the blood.
Without me, the earth would be as empty as the moon.
I am the color of passion and of love, the red rose, the poinsettia and the poppy.
"Purple rose up to his full height:He was very tall and spoke with great pomp: "I am the color of royalty and power.
Kings, chiefs, and bishops have always chosen me for I am the sign of authority and wisdom. People do not question me!
They listen and obey.
"Finally Indigo spoke, much more quietly than all the others, but with just as much determination: "Think of me. I am the color of silence. You hardly notice me, but without me you all become superficial.
I represent thought and reflection, twilight and deep water.
You need me for balance and contrast, for prayer and inner peace.
"And so the colors went on boasting, each convinced of his or her own superiority. Their quarreling became louder and louder.
Suddenly there was a startling flash of bright lightening, thunder rolled and boomed.
Rain started to pour down relentlessly.
The colors crouched down in fear, drawing close to one another for comfort.
In the midst of the clamor, rain began to speak:"You foolish colors, fighting amongst yourselves, each trying to dominate the rest.
Don't you know that you were each made for a special purpose, unique and different? Join hands with one another and come to me.
"Doing as they were told, the colors united and joinedhands.
The rain continued:"From now on, when it rains, each of you will stretch across the sky in a great bow of color as a reminder that you can all live in peace.
The Rainbow is a sign of hope for tomorrow." And so, whenever a good rain washes the world, and a Rainbow appears in the sky, to let us remember to appreciate one another.
theEnd;DD
3/08/2007 05:04:00 AM
I HATE YOU lotsss..
stupid you.. lalalalalas
i simply hate those 2 stupid girls.. 恶心得要死. come larh. msn play wib me. fking bitch. you think i dun dare to scold you back? fking bitch. waste my time on you. no matter how mmuch you tried to scold i will still be dam dam happy in front of you. let you see how much happy im feeling now. you simply sucks. no need further explainations. you just sucks. everyone agrees wib me. no need to explain much.
hmmm.. todae ma. no need those bitch to spoilt my mood. my mood todae was like not very gd le. den they still do so much things make my mood went even more not gd. erm.. dunno y early morning mood jiu not good liao. yih rue was at there asking y is my face so black so moody todae? hmm.. how do i noe? quick go ask my mood. hmmm..
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3/08/2007 02:10:00 AM
i bought hairbands todae. not 1 but 2 hahahas. not both for me. 1 for tlt and 1 for me. hahas. todae's lesson was alright. as usual SS lesson was fun. english teacher was not around. maths. mdm yap was scolding us again. failed maths again. 8/25 i could hab got higher. stupid me. hmmm. after sch sherr accompany me. and we went to cp. bought hairbands lor. hahas. walked to rm after rm on the way back. as usual we were habing girls talk.
a question came out frm her. you and des still got msg ma? my ans. to her was. 3 days didnt msg le. sat, sun & mon. ytd there onli 2-3msg den he didnt reply le. after sch i msg him. wat he replied was dat he cant msg me cos he's habing meeting he will msg me later. but den. i waited the whole night. not a single msg frm him. my whole inbox was onli tlt's msg. hmm.. sherr told me smth. which makes me think alot. wat she said was. you 2 arh. got stead liike no stead like dat. didnt got a chance to ask her carefully. wanted her to elaborate. but she reach home liao. so no choice. i wanna noe more bout why she tok tis way ma. but den.. hmm..
when walking home. all sorts of thoughts came to my mind. wat sherr said was like quite true lor. everytime even if how busy i am. if he msg i surely will reply but as for him. its a total different story.
我知道他在工作，工作很忙这我能体谅但，就算他再忙也终有一点自己的时间来陪我. 可是都没有。im always the one asking him out. cant i hab a time which he's the one asking me or even sherr out? treat it as im 小气bah. i dun want to be the one asking him out always. hmmm. last week he msg me. told me dat his bill bursted he toked 6 hours on the phone. and in the 6 hours. onli a few mins was used on me. i rmbed it was like less den 10 mins? and since im his girlfriend why didnt he like called me more often? is like think he got more things to tok to his friends den me bah. think im being selfish or even jealous right now. but is like why cant he spend more time wib me. jus alittle will do.
his msg to me was like plain, simple. i didnt wish for anything more den dat.. but my feelings for him was like just friends le. doesnt seems dat he's my boyfriend anymore. the feelings was like different. indeed its different. sometimes. i even forgot dat there's this person named des which is my boyfriend. i could even let my sch stuffs homework guides stuffs made me to forgot the special date which belongs to us. i could even forgot how many month hab we been together. tml its our date. i wouldnt rmb if onli sherr reminded me jus now. i wouldnt even wants to rmb dat there's this such day. now i still rmbed bout tml. but soon later i will forgot it totally bah i think.
i think its time for me to reconsider the relationship between me and him.
moody me now~
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3/07/2007 01:40:00 AM
im irritated by the new blogg dat thingy. wanted to create a new blog which it iss open to the others whom i noe. but den is like i tried to edit my blogskin. but den they told me there's error. i dunno where has it gone wrong. stupid. den forget it lor. it dun let me create another blog. den forget it lor. unless.. i get an acc frm my didi. lols. i think its impossible. if you use the new blogger. you are unable to ue those blogskins available.. onli for those who switch their accs den can continue using it. dam lah.
hmmm. think bout the happy stuffs todae. hahas. starting of the day. nth much happen. recess was like lots of laugher. after recess it was f&n went to lab slack again. need to chiong out my stuffs le. cos im SLACKING lots. hahas. need buck up. if the coursework fail. there goes my o lvl's f&n. hahas. here goes the most unhappy moment i hab todae. after f&n it was. VE. i all happens when i came back frm the ladies. jingyi asked me. ''usually you go to movies wat do you usually wear? jeans or skirt'' as im kinda of still in shock cos dunno why jingyi will ask me tis question. so before i hab time to react. dat particular girlfriend of mine. just shouted to me and jingyi. say wat ''theres no difference wearing jeans or skirt wat! go see movie onli.'' stupid her. jingyi is jus asking me and do she need such a big reaction? as if like she is scolding us. she has no rights to scold us ok. wear wat we decide. she's not going anyway. why must she interfer so much? im dam dam angry. dat moment without thinking so much. i simply jus shoot her back in a very bu shuang de manner. her face zi tao shi v.black. stupid her. i bu shuang le. hahahas.
her attitude todae succkssss... i think i simply jus hate her.
after VE was lunch. next was english lesson. she show us her black black face again. cos like no one wants to bother bout her. she's like talking to the walk. cos at first we were like doing the work miss sieow gave den she was like dun want dun want do dat attitude seh. den we were all busy doing no one cares bout her. she was like sharing table wib me? den like make me no space to do my work. den after quite some time. she turn back to her table dunno is she slping or doing her work. doesnt matters anyway. hmmm.. after she turn back not long. we started toking. habing alot of laughters anyway. we didnt include her into our conversation. hahahas. evil us. =xx we didnt mean to. den wat else she told me dat she doesnt want to do her work so i asked her to copy ours. den she was like. ''i very guai one i dun copy work'' she said smth like tis. please lah. you are always the one copy and you said you nv copy. we are toldd to do 2 exercise. after the 1st one. the 2nd one she started copying my work. shuo yi tao zuo yi tao. shen jing bing. after toking for quite some time. we started another conversation which is bout on the 24th our outing. i rmbed we said smth. bout where to meet. den she say wat. ''wat meet where'' den is like no one bother over her. den i hao xiang tok back to her. say ''on the 24th you oso nv go. want to noe for wat? den ask you go you dun want.'' after these words. her face was like black again. and replied me sae dat is not i dun want go. is i not free. not my problem anyway. todae her attitude simply makes me HATE her. afteer toking back to her. i took out a piece of paper. and we started to do smth very very stupid? hahas. tis shows how cute we are. hahahas. but we enjoyed wat we did. I REALLY ENJOYED THE TIMES WITHOUT HER~ lalalalalalas.
*im so sorry if someone has been offended by my post*
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3/06/2007 07:08:00 PM
im here to blog. suppose to be watching tv now. the jap drama 流星花园 but den all becos of soccer liv vs manU daddy is watching the tv now. stupid lah. im been waiting for todae lor. although i saw the taiwan version. but i still wanna see. haiyo.. my showw... oh ya. still rmb ytd wat happen. when mummy is back home. i hab to open the gate for her wat. den open liao the first word she said was. chinese new year dat time which numbers do you asked me to buy. hmmm. i think i still rmbed. its 8220 it think. den mummy passed me $10. i tot wat? she sae she won $60 hahahas. better den nth hor? hmmm.. suddenly got money take. hahahas. dat time after i picked the nums for my grandpa. den i keep reminding mummy must rmb to buy. must rmb to buy. hahas. i didnt expect the nums will come out. tis proved dat i got alittle bit little bit of luck? hmm.. not bad arh. ahahahas. hmmm..
i starting to love tis korean singer-se7en.
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3/03/2007 05:28:00 AM
hmmm.. here i comes again. wat a day i had todae. scary~
im kinda of bored now. hmmm come do some reflection bah.
isma asked.
wat had i did for guides.
hmmm heres my answer bah.
me, yih rue and klt.
we did quite alot for guides.
spending 30hours of our hoildays jus to finish the service learning for guides.
we are always spending our time doing guides stuffs.
we are always thinking bout guides.
all becos of the PNA award we push our self to do lots and lots of badges.
suppose to be exco meeting.
but it always ended up we 3 plus widiah and suhaila doing all the jobs. wat do the others do?
tok? nah. they are just waiting us to say they can leave.
recalled the time back.
we did alot of things. its like hard to count le.
hmmm.. now wat am i gonna do now. haven had my dinner. habing it later =x we are going out on the 24th of march. good good huntedd sch we are coming. lalalalas. hahas. im feeling very cold right now. jus now come back de shi huo. took bus. saw socky and qiu ping. hahas. they did well for their o lvls. hmm den they are very curious bout whose the new exco tis year. hahas. hmm.
everyone jiiayou arh.
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3/02/2007 03:13:00 AM