waahahahaha... im back!! xiang wo ma?? haha... todae went to science center nei.. fun nor... we go there played alot of things walked around... than mrs deepa gib us attend a workshop.... which wanna us to build a thingy hor... which ish light than can move... than can pass the ball into the ''basket'' nor.. wa piang... they took videos on us nor... than after we build the things rite???!! than we hab to let the ''teachers'' to see whether it works not ma... than mrs deepa hor.. beri wad nei.. sae wat she gonna let sherman alan they all see the video nei... wa lau.. soo paiseh nor... dunno wat to do if she reali gave them see the video.. haiz... todae oso got go for guides.. hmmmmm... sad nor... all the sec 4s going le... miss their laughter all tis n dat nor... =< but than see them all crying hor... mi feel like crying too nor... soo sad lei todae... almost all the sec 4s cried... mrs wee they all oso cried... waaaa... mi oso got cry nor... but not soo jialat as them lah.. soo after all those crying... we went to hab some things to eat... than went to play games n sing songs... waaa... happi n sad dae nor... hmmm...
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4/15/2005 07:16:00 PM
YTuesday, April 12, 2005
im crying again... again... i cant hold my tears frm rolling down... haizz... ish it my fault?? or wat?? i wouldnt mean it nor.. its onli wanna you all to understand wat im trying to sae nor... you noe... understand??!! we wasnt like in the past like dat nor... todae sort of quarrelin in klass wib them nor... not i wanted one nor... tried to hold my tears but they didnt listen to mi... then we was sort of shouting in klass than mr chan than other ppl oso dun dare to sae anything nor.... i onli want you all to understand wat mi n meiting ish thinkin wat we wanted nor... i reali didnt mean it nor... juz wanna sae out wat i wanna sae... actually todae wont ended up quarreling one nor... but cant control it le... so started to ''shout'' nor.. not we dun trust them nor... ish dat... you all trusted other ppl more than trusting us nor.. than was like you all sort of beri unfair nor... cant stand anymore... cant we juz be sitting down quitely tok wat we wanna tok?? but den was like everytime i wanna started to open my mouth n tok... some1 will surely come in and tok tok tok craps nor... than was like totally forgotten dat i was about to tok smth nor... finally got chance le... but den ended up crying, shoutin, angry.. i getting close to meiting cos... i feel dat meiting gave mi a beri peaceful feeling nor... like she reali will listen to wat i said gave mi reali comments nor... we gave each other time to tok wat we wanna tok nor... she gave mi reali gd advices nor... but den was like toking to you all i didnt hab the type of feeling im searching for nor.. the peaceful type of feeling let mi feel dat im not toking to myself but reali a person nor... everything keeping in the heart its reali beri stressful nor... you said dat i can tok to you... but den was like i couldnt find a gd time nor... everytime you was like having ''moodswing'' following vann... than was like whenever i was toking to you all.. i feel dat i was reali toking to myself nor.. you all didnt react or anything nor... made mi was like so dunno wat to do nor... toking to myself... whenever you all habing mood swing.. than was like onli we 3... i aready tried my best to make the qi fen not soo cold liao nor... butden was like i was toking to myself again nor... frm tis time onwards... i trying to du li liao nor... not everything oso depand on you all liao lor... dats y alot of things i didnt tell you all nor... but choose to tell meiting... cos she was like totally understand wat im meaning wat im feelin nor... i feel dat we reali change alot liao nor...
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4/12/2005 06:30:00 PM
YSunday, April 10, 2005
y am i crying after reading sher's blog?? got alot to sae nor... juz adding to her words... now was like no energy go handle these things le.. tired le... isit reali no cure le ma?? we are getting more n more like stranger liao lor... totally like we dunno each other at all to mi lah... i feel dat im the one starting all these things nor.. but den not totally mi lah... everybody got the part of starting these things nor... everybody!! not onli mi... we started not to trust each other le less n less... i wish dat there was reali some1 by my side to listen to mi bout all these things nor... i reali dunno wat to do nor... yesterdae i wasnt getting any mood swing nor.... i juz wanna be alone... want to get awhile of quietness... i reali wanna sae out wat feel... but shouldi sae it out?? i feel dat if i sae it out.. we could get it settle but den if we cant settle it would ended up quarreling.. i doesnt want to see tis nor.. the history ish repeating itself again... i dun want to see dat happen but den was like i cant help it... i cant do anything by myself... we dun trust each other as wat we do in the past... we dun!! everything we keep it in our heart we dunn sae it out... dats the problem... we dun trust each other anymore... our distance ish reali far le... wad can we do?? nth right?? continue like tis?? i dun think so.. everybody ish so tired bout tis... everytime i wanna a gd tok wib you all... you all was like jux dun care... tok till half than you all went to tok to another person... if not jiu dun even sae a single word... we doesnt even get serious when it is time to be serious.... we doesnt care bout wat each person is feeling... we doesnt have a single gd tok at all... eerrmmm got once lah.. yet onli once!! we chould hab more... but eveything you all keep it at heart... i reali dunno wat to do liao nor... i reali tried to smile in front of all of you... tried to save tis friendship.. i tried my best... reali my best... reali... i reali wish dat reali some1 could be by my side listen to wat i said wat i feel... i dun wish tis to carry on...
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4/10/2005 09:51:00 PM
YMonday, April 04, 2005
hmmm... todae got quite a ''long'' tok wib meiting nor... haha... tok a lot of personal thingy.. wahahahahas... haiz.. but i still dunno how to discribe my feelings to her nor... it was like i dunno how to sae nor... than suddenly tok till half stuck there... haiz... maybe tml can discribe out ba... than todae in klass like whole dae neber listen one nor... than make chinese teacher angry b4 the lesson end hor.. the last few mins she pack her things and went off... haiz... than wat... ermmm... wat makes you think dat you like a person??!! why everyone hid their feelings in their heart but y not sae it out?? hmmm... hahas.. so sian... all sort of question came to my mind... but mi dunno how to answer myself lei... need to hab a gd tok wib some1... juz now to to meiting.. onli got chance to ask alittle bit of it onli.. not all... hehe... tml i be floodin them wib questions liao... wahahahahas... dunno them tml how to answer mi sia... maube i ask de question they dunno how to answer ba... hehe...