YThursday, April 05, 2007
hmmm.
todae. let me recall wat i did bah.
todae i attitude her. real badly. real badly. during ss lesson.
dam fed up. unhappy jiu let her unhappy nor.
as her wish.
I DUN WANNA CARE BOUT YOU ANYMORE.
get out of my life pls you.
you you. yes you. haiis.
i reali dun wanna see her again. hahas.
hmmm. suffering frm DUMPER'S REMORSE.
hmmm. its a good thing or a bad thing? not sure.
hmmm. how come nowadeas keep feeling like crying?
oh god. everytime i sae tis to sher..
she will tell me god on top. hahas.
ellen know bout wat happened.
told her not to tell anyone.
she agreed. and i trusted her.
she called me not to be sad.
and told me wat. the next one will be better.
i dunno. den she even said wat. theres no KARMA exist.
but the thing is i dun understand wats karma. dat the thing.
asked sherr and tlt. they all dunno.
dat moment i tell her. my mood totally drop down.
feel like crying at dat moment. but i dun wanna cry in front of her. so hold my tears back. and acted to be happy bah.
dats y alot of times you will see me going totally mad.
im just an entertainer.
btw im finishing the book ''its called a breakup because its broken'' le.
den tml i can pass it to dar. let her read on it. tml going out wib them.
i will stay in the library for a long time i think.
oh yeah. i will rmb to bring camera. i wanna take PICtures, PICTUres. and PICTURES. hahas. i guess so? let me take pictures ok? hahas.
isawhisfriendstercommentbyhisfren.calledhimnottobesad.atdatpointoftimeifeltdatiseemstohabhurthimalot. icanrealisensedat.dunnoy.thinkingshouldi开口andgethimbacktome.butimtheonemakingthedecisions.itseemsdatididntconsiderhisfeelingsatall.irealidunno wattodo.iwannasae.butgotdatfeelingswhichtellsmenottodoit.butthesesanotherfeelingstellsmedati shouldtell.
cosiwillrealirealiregretsomeday.
probably. nowiregreted.
letmeliveinmyworlfulldofregretbah.
hisfriendsaskedhimtoforgotboutit.watpastitspast.
butbut.
whydidnthemademestayinthefirstplace?
whydidimadedatdecisioninthefirstplace?
didhenoesdatallthereasonsigavehimareallexcuses?
dohenoesdat.ibeencryingallthetime.
missinghim.cryingoverthestupidsthingsihabdone.
ishewillingtowaitformetillifinishmyo's?
willwegetbacktogetherlikebefore.
ifeeldatimjustactinglikeaspoiltchild.
realiaspoiltchild.
feelingsomessysomessynow.
ohgod.
theEnd;DD
4/05/2007 12:20:00 AM