again. im in the comp lab. the web messenger isnt working. unable to sign in. oh. im crying in the lab. dam it. reading my blog den tears start to roll down. lucky i sit in the corner of the room. no one sees dat im crying. or watever~ i read my blog. the tag board. gq saes im deceiving myself. yes indeed i am. deceiving myself. always. im thinking too much. yes i did. i think alot.
ytd did smth i long ago to do de. i actually msg him all those things i wanna sae. cos diah told me dat. go for it bah. by telling him. i will feel much better. and diah too. she called her bf up.. but both of us got heartbroken. for diah's he bluffing her again. all lies. lies. lies. always lies. hurt diah so much. dam him. for me. forget it bah. onli few words. nth much. he doesnt wants this r/s back. his reaction was cold. forget it. but telling him all those. its the last time i will do these things le bah. let go of him. carry on wib my life. at dat moment. i felt dat im not the orignal marilyn anymore. fake smiles. craziie me. doing things real slow. even walking. love can really make someone change.
leave me alone~ i dun wanna care bout tis anymore. give me lots & lots of work to do. please.