y am i crying after reading sher's blog?? got alot to sae nor... juz adding to her words... now was like no energy go handle these things le.. tired le... isit reali no cure le ma?? we are getting more n more like stranger liao lor... totally like we dunno each other at all to mi lah... i feel dat im the one starting all these things nor.. but den not totally mi lah... everybody got the part of starting these things nor... everybody!! not onli mi... we started not to trust each other le less n less... i wish dat there was reali some1 by my side to listen to mi bout all these things nor... i reali dunno wat to do nor... yesterdae i wasnt getting any mood swing nor.... i juz wanna be alone... want to get awhile of quietness... i reali wanna sae out wat feel... but shouldi sae it out?? i feel dat if i sae it out.. we could get it settle but den if we cant settle it would ended up quarreling.. i doesnt want to see tis nor.. the history ish repeating itself again... i dun want to see dat happen but den was like i cant help it... i cant do anything by myself... we dun trust each other as wat we do in the past... we dun!! everything we keep it in our heart we dunn sae it out... dats the problem... we dun trust each other anymore... our distance ish reali far le... wad can we do?? nth right?? continue like tis?? i dun think so.. everybody ish so tired bout tis... everytime i wanna a gd tok wib you all... you all was like jux dun care... tok till half than you all went to tok to another person... if not jiu dun even sae a single word... we doesnt even get serious when it is time to be serious.... we doesnt care bout wat each person is feeling... we doesnt have a single gd tok at all... eerrmmm got once lah.. yet onli once!! we chould hab more... but eveything you all keep it at heart... i reali dunno wat to do liao nor... i reali tried to smile in front of all of you... tried to save tis friendship.. i tried my best... reali my best... reali... i reali wish dat reali some1 could be by my side listen to wat i said wat i feel... i dun wish tis to carry on...