im crying again... again... i cant hold my tears frm rolling down... haizz... ish it my fault?? or wat?? i wouldnt mean it nor.. its onli wanna you all to understand wat im trying to sae nor... you noe... understand??!! we wasnt like in the past like dat nor... todae sort of quarrelin in klass wib them nor... not i wanted one nor... tried to hold my tears but they didnt listen to mi... then we was sort of shouting in klass than mr chan than other ppl oso dun dare to sae anything nor.... i onli want you all to understand wat mi n meiting ish thinkin wat we wanted nor... i reali didnt mean it nor... juz wanna sae out wat i wanna sae... actually todae wont ended up quarreling one nor... but cant control it le... so started to ''shout'' nor.. not we dun trust them nor... ish dat... you all trusted other ppl more than trusting us nor.. than was like you all sort of beri unfair nor... cant stand anymore... cant we juz be sitting down quitely tok wat we wanna tok?? but den was like everytime i wanna started to open my mouth n tok... some1 will surely come in and tok tok tok craps nor... than was like totally forgotten dat i was about to tok smth nor... finally got chance le... but den ended up crying, shoutin, angry.. i getting close to meiting cos... i feel dat meiting gave mi a beri peaceful feeling nor... like she reali will listen to wat i said gave mi reali comments nor... we gave each other time to tok wat we wanna tok nor... she gave mi reali gd advices nor... but den was like toking to you all i didnt hab the type of feeling im searching for nor.. the peaceful type of feeling let mi feel dat im not toking to myself but reali a person nor... everything keeping in the heart its reali beri stressful nor... you said dat i can tok to you... but den was like i couldnt find a gd time nor... everytime you was like having ''moodswing'' following vann... than was like whenever i was toking to you all.. i feel dat i was reali toking to myself nor.. you all didnt react or anything nor... made mi was like so dunno wat to do nor... toking to myself... whenever you all habing mood swing.. than was like onli we 3... i aready tried my best to make the qi fen not soo cold liao nor... butden was like i was toking to myself again nor... frm tis time onwards... i trying to du li liao nor... not everything oso depand on you all liao lor... dats y alot of things i didnt tell you all nor... but choose to tell meiting... cos she was like totally understand wat im meaning wat im feelin nor... i feel dat we reali change alot liao nor...